I feel numb

Well, what happened yesterday just proved that I really don't feel and don't belong to my class.

I don't feel anything for my class when that "issue" happened. Ewan, nung may mga nakuhanan...everyone was like crying and comforting those people pero...wala akong pake. Hahaha...siguro nga hindi talaga at never na masisira ang wall na tinayo between me and the class. Ever since malaman ko kasi kung anong class ko nung summer, hindi ko na na-feel ang class ko. I just don't like them.

Kaya nung sa nangyari kahapon ay I don't sympathized with the class nung may mga nakukuhanan eh. Sorry sa word pero, Care ko? I'm just with them just for the sake of having to hold class with. I don't feel anything towards them....at all!

I may have made some friends there but I like them as individual people and not as a part of the class. Sam and me share the same feeling towards the class. We're just staying in the room during classes and hang-out with our classmates just for academic reasons. Haha, nung retreat ko lang na-feel na I belong pero after nun, back to zero ulit. Haha...

I really feel sorry for myself because I have to spend my very LAST year as a highschool student with this class. Hindi parin talaga naaalis sa isip ko na I should've just transferred to another room nung first day. Oh well, ilang months na lang naman eh and I'll graduate na.